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GloPoWriMo 2019: 5/30

Today’s prompt asks me to try one of three things. I’ve chosen to attempt a villanelle. Examples include One Art, by Elizabeth Bishop

Shorts

I wish I could wear shorts everywhere,
Show off my bruised knees and my glistening shins,
Allow them to be declassified as merely leisure wear.

My legs deserve to breathe the open air,
I imagine it would catch several people unaware,
But truly, I wish I could wear shorts everywhere.

Understand that merely because pants are treated with more care,
Does not entitle them to a class containing silverwear,
Please, I beg you, declassify shorts as leisure wear.

This false notion propagates injustice,
It prevents shorts from being worn at classrooms and official events,
Shorts are stylish – allow me to wear them everywhere,
By declassifying them as merely being leisurewear.

 

The Black Book | Orhan Pamuk

The Black Book
by Orhan Pamuk, translated by Maureen Freely
Published by Vintage (2006)
Rating: ****

As an exposition of Turkish culture, only the Turkish or individuals with intricate knowledge of the Mediterranean nation’s history can comment on the accuracy of The Black Book. I do not claim to be an expert in this field. As a result, my comments on Turkishness are restricted to plot points which stood out to me. Nonetheless, it is impossible to read Pamuk, even the translated version, and miss his identity and the influence of his surroundings on the book.

The Black Book opens with rhe protagonist, Galip, finding that his wife/first cousin Rüya has left him. Over the course of the novel, he attempts to hunt her down in Istanbul  – suspecting that she has taken off with her half-brother, Celal, a columnist. The book weaves in reprints of Celal’s columns with Galip’s hunt for his wife. Eventually, Galip attempts living as Celal – trying to think like Celal, and understand where they could have possibly disappeared. Eventually, trying to fuse his identity with Celal’s has consequences he was unprepared for – including life-threatening circumstances, which arrive from Celal’s own past. The book ends with a death, and a revelation built-up too, but unpredictable, which is typical of Pamuk’s writing.

As with The White Castle, Pamuk’s craft of storytelling is a thoroughly enjoyable adventure. His prose is smooth, and fluid – with a sustained build-up to a conclusion that sparks the imagination. True to style, Pamuk is able to invoke post-modern elements including a reveal that introduces the narrator’s role in the entire story, startling, yet masterfully constructed.

Noticeably, The Black Book builds on a lot of Pamuk’s revelations about identity in the White Castle. There are multiple levels on which a deep level of confusion about identity dominates the narrative. First, we see Galip’s own confusion and dissatisfaction with who he is. He slowly comes to understand his own unhappiness and causative factors for the same. This plot intertwines with Istanbul’s own identity as a city – which is split between an attempt to be secular, and an attempt to proudly accept and celebrate it’s Muslim and Christian roots. Finally, the book asks several questions about Turkey’s identity as a nation – and how people choose to confront the westernization of the nation.

None of this feels forced upon the reader, which I think is Pamuk’s biggest achievement with this book. It is entirely possible to enjoy the mystery of Rüya’s disappearance without viewing the plot as a commentary on Turkey. I thought the book could do with greater depth of character for Rüya, who is painted exclusively through one lens. Additionally, Pamuk’s choice of focusing on Istanbul and Turkey separately is intriguing, and perhaps, overdone in parts.

Nonetheless, this is a book I would thoroughly recommend. Pamuk is an author I’ve been aching to read, and I’m glad 2019 is the year I read him.

2019: Ninety-Four

I feel like every day is a new opportunity to write on something I hate about summer. Today, I present to you, the clothing dilemma. Every single morning, I am required to wear pants of some kind. I generalize, but essentially, my University has a mandate that we must not showcase our ashleel ankles, or any part above them. Arms are okay. Because apparently arms do not create any issues in society. I wonder if anybody has been slapped. Arms have the potential to cause a lot of damage. Yet we don’t cover them. You’ve got to ask yourself why, I think. Anyway, coming back to the thick of things – the clothing dilemma is something I experience every morning. After bathing, as I put on these pants, and as I fasten my belt, all I can think about is how long the Sun must shine today before I can expose my shins to the world. This is because all I want to do is wear shorts.

In other news, in an attempt to fulfill my ambitions of making music again, I tried to install some software and accidentally got some adware onto my system. I’ve got rid of most of it, thanks to a timely installation of anti-virus software. But God, is adware irritating. I guess I got too excited last night. This is my punishment.

GloPoWriMo 2019: 4/30

Today’s prompt challenges me to achieve sadness through simplicity.

Hide And Seek

There is a purple packet,
That is rather shiny.
It contains chocolate chip cookies,
In a square shape.
In the winter, the chocolate chips are a little melted,
And the biscuits are soft,
They’re rather delicious,
Although I know they may make my teeth rot.
I don’t really care about the sugar,
I will brush thrice if I have to.
But Gujarat summer means that the chocolate chips aren’t as melted any more,
Which is not at all what I expected,
Also the packet promised 10% extra biscuits,
I just checked,
I was duped.
Clearly the 10% is playing Hide And Seek.

2019: Ninety-Three

Today I’ve discovered that my mother has once again begun to write poetry – and I’m really happy about this. See, my mother has the gift of the gab. Her storytelling ability and her creativity is something that runs in her blood. If she’s free, it’s pretty much a guarantee that she’ll start something to immerse herself into creatively. But she hasn’t written poetry for a very long time, so it’s absolutely lovely to see her back in the thick of things.

The first time I read something my mother had written – properly, was when I spotted this recipe book that she had at home. With red thick binding, the recipe book has “Lekha” on the cover, and is in such good condition that none of the pages are torn, although they’re incredibly faded. They contain some ridiculously mouth-watering recipes, and the instructions are written to make you imagine what you’re going to eat, and visualize it. I ended up hungry every time I read that book.

My mum’s poetry is something I’m looking forward to reading. More than anything because she’s really good at rhyming words. And honestly, that’s the most fun to read.

GloPoWriMo 2019: 3/30

Today’s prompt was to write something that takes time.

Stuck in the Exam Hall

I enter in my pyjamas,
Having barely slept,
My beard’s gruffy,
I’m rather unkempt.
But my teeth are brushed,
And I’ve had a shower,
I’ve put on some deodorant,
That’ll keep me fresh for a few hours.

The door shuts behind me,
Blocking off the chaos outside,
People scrambling for last-minute explanations,
Others admitting their brain is fried.
I walk up and down the aisle,
Locating my registration number,
I look hard into my seat,
Does it have enough cushioning, I wonder.

The next three hours are going to be terrible,
For my entire body will ache,
My hand is going to cramp, my brain will fade,
I’m certain my butt atleast deserves a break.
I inhale deeply,
And take a seat,
The door is now locked,
My fate, now sealed.

The bell rings, it’s frequency shrill,
The room’s gotten colder,
With the AC on full blast,
The temperatures are chill.
My body doesn’t seem to understand,
I can feel a bead of sweat,
My exam paper is here,
And I’m ready to get wrecked.

I glance through the paper,
And look around,
People appear confused,
Our lack of knowledge visible, unbound.
Nonetheless,
I start to write with confidence,
The goal is to fill pages,
Even if there’s little of substance.

As I’m writing,
My mind begins to wander,
And all I can think,
Is whether my clothes will be laundered.
Quickly realizing I need a break,
I decide to drink some water,
I take a look at the clock,
Someone’s phone is ringing,
The invigilator’s caught her.

That chaos took me way off track,
And now I have two hours left,
I feel the need to pee,
My request falls on deaf ears, I am bereft.
Across the room, I make eye contact with my friend,
He’s struggling too,
He makes a PG-13 gesture,
I chuckle, and to write, I continue.

Thirty minutes later,
My bladder feels like it’s about to burst,
So I begin to sprint,
After I urinate, I run back – this routine is rehearsed.
Time is now flying by,
And there’s 30 marks still to write,
I’m pretty sure I need an extension,
But no help is in sight.

This last question is way too confusing,
How have I even made it this far, I wonder,
Now I’m drawing arrows because I can’t write full sentences,
My time-management has been a blunder.
The bell rings again,
My paper is taken
My friend makes another PG-13 gesture,
We laugh, my faith in our arbitrary marking system, unshaken.

 

2019: Ninety-Two

Today, somebody asked me why I used exclamation marks in the subject of my e-mails, because they received an email from me (through one of the University webmail accounts that I manage) which ended with an exclamation mark in the title.

I laughed. Initially, I didn’t think this was a serious question at all.

But the person didn’t budge.

I hadn’t really thought about it. It was evident, however, that there was genuine curiousity behind how I could compose a seemingly “official” e-mail with an exclamation mark. So I attempted to explain the funda behind this act with the first piece of logic that came to my mind.

If I remember accurately, what I explained was that I felt a duty to make people open the e-mails I send out to them. See, if I’m putting effort into writing something, it’ll be nice if some people atleast open the e-mail. It’s pretty clear that individuals interested in the subject-matter will open it. But if someone who has absolutely no interest in the title opens it because of a catchy title or an exclamation mark I’ve used, who am I to stop that, honestly.

Might as well exploit the way the human brain responds to exclamation marks.

This ridiculously well-researched article takes a look at how exclamation marks work and how many you need to seem genuinely enthusiastic about something.

In conclusion, I think it’s safe to say that I’m the world’s worst click-baiter.

GloPoWriMo 2019: 2/30

Today’s theme is Questions. I’ve taken inspiration from a quiz I did over the weekend.

Is Anyone There?

The next time you feel particularly sad,
In need of a set of ears,
Find yourself the closest balcony,
The closest rooftop,
Your closest gateway to the skies and open space,
And scream.

This coping mechanism works when you feel despair,
Anger,
Or anything, even happiness, really,
And feel like you have nobody to share it with,
Because here’s the thing:
It doesn’t really matter what you scream,
Whether utter gibberish, or coherent phrases –
Somebody will respond.

Flogsta is a classic example,
But there are examples everywhere you look,
Including my own hostel, where “Maaro, Maaro!” evokes a raucous,
“Thaaai, Thaai!”, even when nobody is getting hit.

So don’t be afraid of attempting to communicate,
Somebody will respond,
That response may be delayed because of the lightyears your sound needs to travel,
But somebody will reply.

The next time you feel particularly sad,
And you ask yourself,
“Whom can I talk to?”
Find yourself the closest balcony,
The closest rooftop,
And scream, with hope, and conviction:
Is Anyone There?

2019: Ninety-One

Temperatures in Gujarat have gone up ridiculously quickly. Normally I really like the heat because the temperature only hits unbearable levels in May, and it’s a refreshing change because it’s very energizing, in a sense. In summer, I find my laziness to be minimized because I don’t feel like cuddling up and sleeping on my bed. I prefer being indoors, yes, but I’m okay staying up on my chair and doing work.

Also, heat means more excuses to eat ice-cream and drink tender coconut water and consume other cool beverages. I like that too.

Except, Gujarat decided to experience a heat wave before it’s gradual rise in temperatures. Which means that the temperature here hit peaks even before “summer” weather actually started. Which is draining.

Anyway, I’ll be out of here in a bit, so it’s futile complaining about the weather.

Today, I spent some time thinking about how I used to pack my bag as a child. Every single night before school. We had textbooks and notebooks for every single subject, and I remember my parents cultivating this habit of ensuring my bag was packed every night before I went to sleep. It involved a couple of things, usually done in sequence. First was taking everything out of my bag. Then I had to look at the time-table and arrange all the books I needed for the next day. And then I had to arrange these in height order and place them in my bag – with labels facing in front.

After that I had to take my pencilbox and ensure that every pencil was sharpened and I had all the tools I needed to make sure that my day would go on without a hitch. The last part of this, when I was younger, involved showing my parents my Diary – so they could check that there were no important Circulars or Notifications I had forgotten to share with them.

It was only after this exercise that I was allowed to sleep.

Eventually though, as subjects reduced, I stopped caring so much about having a packed bag. Instead, I became lazy, and ensured that I had every book, every single day. This was fuelled primarily by my laziness. However, a large contributing factor was also the fact that my class timetable literally changed on a daily basis. Eventually, by the time 12th rolled around, I turned up to class with zero knowledge of what classes were happening, but one hundred percent confidence that I had everything I needed in my bagpack.

This was because I didn’t empty my bagpack ever.

I remember cleaning it out on the last day of Grade 12 and finding my first worksheet packed in somewhere. And some notes I had made the year before.

My mum never understood why I carried so much, but I carried it nonetheless. I carry that forward to today. I haven’t really unpacked my college bag since the semester started. I have 6 subjects, so I carry 6 books (even though I  write only in 2), one miscellaneous book, and a diary, for meetings.

The only thing I legitimately do every night is re-fill ink in my pen.

Maybe I should start packing my bag again. If nothing, it made me feel like I had accomplished something small. And I always headed into the day feeling prepared. Maybe that’s why my parents made me do it.

GloPoWriMo 2019: 1/30

Today’s theme is to write an “instruction poem”, apparently. This is my attempt at that.

Ink

“Make sure you don’t get stains on this”
Your parents tell you when you get your first white formal shirt in Grade 4.
And you take that seriously: because the punishment might be severe,
Or worse you may disappoint your parents,
Which is for some reason, something you fear.
Except then you’re introduced to fountain pens,
With the perfect weight-balance,
The smoothest writing,
And the weapon of choice for every pre-teen with pent-up energy,
Getting inked does not mean getting a tattoo,
But is a rite of passage.
The first ink blot on your white shirt will scare you,
Because of the punishment at home,
But will make you laugh at it’s memory.
So here’s my instruction to you,
Child who is insolently crying in the corner with an ink blot on his shirt.
Stop crying
And throw ink on the fool that got you –
Because enduring punishment is easier in pairs.

2019: Ninety

So the last post had a lot about Mumbai’s rap scene, because DIVINE performed on campus yesterday. But the first Indian rapper I heard was Brodha V, so, if you haven’t heard him already:

I got super into Indian music and into the Bangalore music scene after I heard him. There’s so much out there, it’s pretty phenomenal.

But today has marked the end of Pentagram. It’s been a wild three days of festing. Today I saw my only real opportunity to make some money slip past me – because of an incredibly long quiz finals set, but I ate biryani and pancakes, and my world is completely fine.

In other news, I’ve managed to meet all my writing deadlines for this weekend (and there were a lot) – so that’s something I’m happy to celebrate.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of a massive week and month in my life. There are two moots I’m involved in starting this week, and GloPoWriMo generally. Also, it’s my final month of fourth year – so my final month before I’m away from campus for a good three months before coming back for final year.

That’s insane. Time has gone by so rapidly.

Also birthday month is coming soon too. So, exciting days lie ahead.