Month: September 2019

Wherever I go next, I’m going to go play field hockey. I miss it.

I’m very impressed by FIFA’s ability to create a new mode, but more crucially, by the fact that Hans Zimmer did the score for this.

Stepping away from things is important. To respect people’s wishes, but also, to give yourself the time and space that you need to figure out things.

I’ve finally got a weekend free in college. It’s not something I’m used to so I’m not entirely sure how to spend the time. It’s very likely that I will sleep, and not do much else. I need that.

I watched this episode with my mum and the song really stuck in my head. This interpretation has been something that’s been widely debated, but the portrayal, this scene, the music, it’s all incredible:

The consequences of everything I did are consequences I am scared of, but are the consequences I must face. There are hits I’m taking. At the moment I am incredibly grateful for my parents’ support through all this. They’re reminding me about ownership and responsibility, and that is all that matters to me at the moment. And learning.

I’ve made mistakes over the last day and a half. I’m uncertain how to come to terms with them – because they feel very uncharacteristic of me. I would rather not blog about them, but that would be dishonest. I will tell you this, however, world: I’m going to confront these errors I’ve committed. I’m distraught at the moment, but I’m apologetic, and I’m going to take some time to work on becoming better.

The blogging might stop for a few days as a result, but I will upload media that I find fascinating, that I wish to share with you.

In the interim, I’m recording my thoughts on Word and I’ll upload them onto the internet in due course.

Today was a better day than yesterday because no tabs crashed, our tournament ran on time, and we pulled off TGD the way TGD is meant to be pulled off. For all of that and more – including the kindest gifts from amazing juniors, and a farewell performance that is indescribable, I am grateful to this University.

I will miss these people when I leave, and I will miss this place.